Dearest daughter in Jesus Christ,

Don’t be discouraged, my daughter.  As Jesus wants to try your fidelity, He deprives you, for a set time, of His sensible Presence.  He showed this behavior even toward His own Mother.   Jesus had intuited the grief His absence would cause; nevertheless, He distanced Himself for a day or so from her and remained in the temple without her knowledge. If it pleases Jesus, who is all love, to try you in this same way, don’t torment yourself, arm yourself with courage, and wait patiently for His return.

Although He is always close to you to help you every time you ask for His help, it is good, though, that He sometimes pretends to go away so that you could better understand how unfortunate you would be if you were to really lose Him.

When Jesus favors a soul with His consolations He does this to comfort her in her sorrows. Then, when he permits that she be abandoned to aridity and to desolation, He does this so that she may not become too proud of the kindness He has toward her.

All, or almost all, the souls who have faithfully followed Jesus have had similar alternating experiences of joy and sadness, devotion and aridity, peace and temptation.  When Jesus appeared to distance Himself from them, pretending to abandon those dear souls to themselves, they felt the extent of their weakness; but they did not lose heart, because they were confident of Jesus’ help. When Jesus’ grace sustained you with sweetness and consolation, you walked with pleasure and happiness; but you will make greater gains in virtue now that He is trying you with aridity while you bear patiently, humbly and submissively the state of abandonment in which Jesus pretends to leave you. It is true that this state is a sad one because sometimes it seems more a punishment than a trial; nevertheless, daughter, don’t lose heart, but have confidence and firm hope, and the trial will not be long as it wasn’t for Mary, His Mother.  Imitate the solicitude that this Mother had in seeking her Son.  Search for Him, as she did, with a holy desire and a holy impatience to find Him.    But never complain.   Jesus owes you nothing.    If you have some complaint, let it be, according to the example of Mary, a lament of love.

I want to hope that Jesus has not distanced Himself because of some infidelity of yours, but if such be the case, ask His pardon and practice some painful humiliation.  Promise Jesus that from now on, you will pay greater attention to avoiding everything that could displease Him.   Tell Him that whatever the reason may be for His behavior toward you, you submit to being put to the test in the way that He may want, and for as long as He may want, so long as you be allowed to preserve His holy love always in your heart.

What I could assure you of, my daughter, is that Jesus loves you with a love of predilection.   Therefore, see to it that you never lose esteem for such grace, holding yourself ever vigilant so as not to commit the smallest infidelity to grace as is wholeheartedly wished for you by one who blesses you maternally and is pleased to call herself, in Jesus,

Your most affectionate Mother

Dearest daughter in Jesus Christ,

I have already told you — and I repeat to you — that you have an extreme need to distrust yourself and to throw yourself with complete confidence into the Heart of Jesus, expecting and waiting for every good thing, help and gain from Him alone. You, who are nothing of yourself, are not permitted to expect anything of yourself but continuous falls. If, in order to obtain His help, you arm your heart with a filial confidence in Him, you will be able to obtain from the loving divine Jesus great victories. And this you will be able to obtain primarily by humbly asking it of Jesus; secondly, by transporting yourself and seeing with the eye of faith the omnipotence and infinite wisdom of God for whom nothing is impossible or difficult and that He, being goodness personified, is always ready to give hour by hour and moment by moment all that you need for the spiritual life and total victory over yourself, so long as you throw yourself with full confidence into His loving arms.

And could it be possible that our Divine Shepherd, who for thirty‐three years has pursued the lost sheep with such loud cries that He became hoarse and along paths that were so difficult and thorny that He shed all His blood and died, now that you, dearest daughter, as His little lamb are following Him, obeying His commands, with the desire to obey Him, calling after Him and begging Him, could it be possible that He not turn His life‐giving eyes to you, that He not listen to you and not put you on His divine shoulders, rejoicing with all His neighbors and Angels in heaven?

How could it be possible that Jesus would abandon that little lost lamb who very loudly called out to its Shepherd? How is possible to ever believe that when Jesus, who continuously knocks at the heart of a person with the desire to enter in and dine with him and communicate His gifts, that when the person opens the door of his heart, He pretends to be deaf and does not want to enter?

Listen, my daughter: Whenever it occurs to you to do something and to undertake some battle and overcome yourself, before you decide to do that, remind yourself of your weakness, and then, turning toward the power, wisdom and divine goodness and confiding in that, decide to fight and to work generously. And with these weapons in hand and with prayer, fight and work generously.

Don’t cease to repeat with your mind and with your heart this short prayer: “Blood and Wounds of my Jesus, be my strength, my energy, my weapons in the spiritual, moral, physical and temporal battles. Be my victories, my merits, my virtues.”

You will also say: “Oh, my Mother, transform me according to the desires of the Heart of Jesus.”

Please tell your good Superior and Sisters that I send a blessing to all — no one excluded — so that you may distance yourselves from every shadow of sin and all may walk with giant steps along the narrow way of the Saints according to the designs of God for each of you.

I implore upon you, daughters, the maternal blessing of Most Holy Mary so that your hearts, blessed by her, may become fertile with the flowers and fruits of true sanctity.

“Use charity with a sweet and serene look, with an affable air, with sweet and cordial words; use an indulgent charity, always taking it in a good way and favorably interpreting all that is said; excusing others even at your own expense as far as prudence permits.”

You should not show any discontent because of the coarseness or infirmity of your neighbor. You are to accept with affability and sweetness their advice, reprehensions, and mortifications, whatever they may be. Guard your words and your manner so as not to say anything nor do anything that may displease, but say and do all that conscience permits and is amiable. You must show them affection, render them services with joy, and charitably interest yourself in all that they need. When others are speaking, you are to listen without permitting yourself to interrupt what they are saying; you should willingly acquiesce to their feelings as far as your conscience permits; avoid speaking of yourself or of that which could draw to yourself the esteem and praise of others.   See to it that zeal for good may sanctify your conversation, console your neighbor in his sadness, encourage him in his doubts, strengthen him in his weakness, lift him up in his discouragement, give him good counsel and exhort him to return to God and to virtue.

You should not treat others with arrogance, nor with austerity, nor contradict what others say. Finally, we must conduct ourselves in such a way that no one will have cause to complain about us, that all may be edified by our manner of comportment.   If the people with whom you converse displease you, it is necessary to hide the inner repugnance that they inspire in you under a gracious demeanor and not allow anything sad, annoying, or austere to be conveyed through words or actions, because charity obliges us to have compassion on them and to give them good example, so that they may amend their defects by which they render themselves displeasing.

Try to make your conversations edifying. Your mouth is to be the expression of the sentiments of your heart.

I bless you all with all my heart and in Jesus I remain,   Your most affectionate Mother

Dearest daughter in Jesus Christ,

I understand. Have courage and unlimited confidence in God. You, dearest daughter, must begin [your journey] little by little and with gentleness, with unbounded trust in the divine Heart of Jesus, who calls you saying: “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will comfort you. All you who are thirsty come to the fountain.”

You, daughter, must follow this action and divine vocation; you must continue to wait for the prompting of the Holy Spirit, so that, with determination you may throw yourself blindly into the ocean of divine Providence and of the Eternal Will and beg that it be fulfilled in you so that you may be carried along by the most powerful waves of divine kindness, unable to resist, and be transported to the shore of your particular perfection and spiritual well‐being.

Having made this decision, which you should repeat many times each day, study yourself and strive, with as much certitude as you can, interiorly and exteriorly, to draw near, with all the strength of your soul, to those things that excite you and bring you to appreciate ever more the goodness, the loveableness and the infinite charity of your beloved Jesus.

These acts are to be done always without pressure and violence to your heart so that they do not weaken you or maybe even incapacitate you.

Whenever you can, accustom yourself to the contemplation of the divine goodness and of His continuous and loving gifts, and humbly receive the droplets of His inestimable goodness that will descend into your soul. Guard yourself well against forced tears or other devotions of the senses, but remain tranquil in interior solitude awaiting the fulfillment in you of God’s divine Will. And then when He may give these to you, they will be sweet, without struggle or force, and you will receive them with gentleness and serenity and above all with humility.

Remember, daughter that the key to opening the secrets of spiritual treasures is in knowing how to deny oneself always and in all things, and it is this key that closes the door to tepidity and mental aridity when it is caused by our own fault. When these come from God, they join the other treasures of the soul.

Be pleased to stand with Mary as much as you can at the feet of Jesus and listen to what He tells you.   Be watchful so that your enemies (chief among whom is you, yourself) will be unable to impede this holy silence.

For now I will say no more because I hope you will put into practice what I have written.   Now I leave you at the feet of Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament, so that, with His strength, you will be able to distance yourself from any shadow of sin and continue along the narrow path of the Saints!

I bless you with all my heart, Your most affectionate Mother

Dearest daughters in Jesus Christ,

Remember, my daughters, that mutual tolerance is part of the precept of charity. These two things are so bound to each other that without mutual suffering, charity would not be possible, and it would be necessary to cancel this precept from the Gospel because every person on earth has his or her own defects and imperfections. There are no angels except in heaven. If you don’t bear with the defects and imperfections of others, you break that bond and charity is destroyed.   Everyone has his or her own particular nature. Inclinations and temperaments are not all the same; judgments and ways of feeling contradict each other; wills clash with one another; tastes vary. No, among so many contrary elements, the fusion of hearts to form one heart, only one soul, as charity demands, is not possible so long as people don’t bear with one another in their weaknesses and don’t suffer in a spirit of charity and patience all that offends them, all that displeases them, all that does not meet with their tastes nor their disposition.   Without this mutual tolerance the union of hearts would be likewise impossible, no different than the fusion of water with fire, of light with darkness. There would necessarily be among them divisions, arguments, discord.

Therefore, bear with one another with great humility. This excludes sensitivities and pretensions. This will teach you how to treat your neighbor. Do it with sweetness and patience and so you will exclude murmurs and grumbling, criticisms, sarcasm, stinging barbs, antipathies and impatience with displeasures received. Do this with great charity and this will teach you to treat your neighbor as you would like to be treated yourselves… God will not be indulgent toward our defects except in the measure that we are indulgent toward the defects of our brothers and sisters. If we do not support our neighbor, God will not support us; if we do not sympathize with others, God will not sympathize with us.   We ourselves, daughters, do recognize the demand of this law, and so we say: Forgive us, O Lord, our offenses as we forgive those who have offended us. We, therefore, must be indulgent toward our own faults in the measure that we are indulgent toward the faults of others. Justice itself obliges us to mutual tolerance.   Who does not feel the need for herself of this law of tolerance, of this law, which is protective of human weakness? Now if we want it to be observed in our regard, isn’t it a real injustice not to want to observe it regarding our neighbor?   We complain about the imperfections of others, but we don’t want others to complain about ours? [We complain] about their character and of their moods, but don’t we also have some critical moments? [We complain] about their impulsiveness, or of their discourtesy, but don’t we also fall into the impulse of a language that is too pointed and rude? It is not good, daughters, in fact, it is very bad, for us to want perfection in others to the point of not supporting in them any spot, any imperfection. Seriously probe your own conscience a little bit, daughters, and see how you support the defects of your neighbors.

I remain in Jesus, Your anguished Mother